there must be something to say

It's been what... six months since I last updated this blog? In all that time surely something interesting and worth writing about has happened.

Lots has happened. That's probably the problem.

And a lot hasn't happened, too. My life is a weird mix of going billion miles an hour only to screech to a stop to do nothing at all. It's confusing and almost impossible to explain. It's to the point now that when I come back from trips I almost hope no one asks me about it because... well first, I know they don't really want to sit through a detailed rerun of all my experiences, and second, because I have trouble putting everything into words. It's almost easier to let what's in the past stay in the past. Now is where the living is.

But really, that's not the best way to live either. If you only live in the now and don't ever ponder the past then it's harder to learn from your mistakes. It's hard to grow and become a better person.

So what to do, what to do? I don't want to talk about my trips because I'd rather not pretend that people will understand. But then if I don't talk about it I don't process it. Shall I blog about it then? But then I'm confronted with trying to articulate my experiences in writing which is so hard sometimes.

I think I should start creating short videos.... especially when I'm on trips. I've learned to do that recently thanks to the documentary trip I took in November. Video takes wordage right out of the whole process.... a picture speaks a thousand words and all. That's why I like photography. I don't have to say a thing.